Monthly Archives: December 2012

a conversation between God and cancer

I will take her strength and independence. I will give joy to those who serve her and will intensify their bond. I will take her hair. I will reveal the incomparable, unfading beauty of her spirit. And I will demolish … Continue reading

Posted in anxiety, blog, brain cancer, christianity, depression, fear, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grief work, guilt, healing, hope, inspiration, love, mother daughter relationships, spiritual healing | 24 Comments

The most important Christmas gift we’ll ever open…

My husband and I love giving Christmas gifts to our kids. We always get a kick out of watching them rip them open with warp speed. In our family’s tradition (surely established by an adult) we take turns opening presents … Continue reading

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5 words that turned trauma into a gift…

I was given an incredible gift today and I just have to share it with you. It wasn’t wrapped in Christmas paper, and it didn’t arrive in a UPS truck. The gift was given to me in a phone call … Continue reading

Posted in anxiety, blog, brain cancer, christianity, depression, fear, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grief work, guilt, healing, hope, inspiration, love, mother daughter relationships, motherhood, ptsd, recovery, spiritual healing, therapy, trauma | 18 Comments

15 minutes of hell

I’m sitting next to my mom’s hospital bed right now listening to her snore softly. I feel sad to see her bruised cheek and black eye from yesterday’s horrible incident. I have an unlikely mix of high emotions going around … Continue reading

Posted in anxiety, blog, brain cancer, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grief work, mother daughter relationships, recovery | 40 Comments

A prayer for the families in Connecticut…and for all of us.

God, our hearts are broken and outraged about the murders in Connecticut. We feel powerless and we don’t understand how this can happen…again. We are desperate for answers, for healing, and for the help these families will need to sort … Continue reading

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Emotional streaking…

Just a quick note before I share my little breakthrough this morning. When I decided to write a blog about my recovery, I never intended it to be real-time. I thought it would be a reflective memoir of sorts, a … Continue reading

Posted in addiction, anxiety, blog, brain cancer, christianity, depression, eating disorders, fear, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grief work, healing, hope, inspiration, love, ptsd, recovery, spiritual healing, therapy, trauma | 15 Comments

Why I hate it when the phone rings…

After a wonderful evening celebrating the Christmas season with friends tonight, my cell phone rang. It was my sister telling me that my mom is back in the hospital. Just earlier today we were celebrating her last day of radiation … Continue reading

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This is why I blog…

Thank you, Robin for the inspiration for this post. Why do I blog? I sat in front of my doctor and admitted I was feeling suicidal. It was my very first appointment with him and I was falling apart right in … Continue reading

Posted in addiction, anxiety, blog, brain cancer, christianity, depression, eating disorders, fear, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grief work, guilt, healing, hope, love, motherhood, ptsd, recovery, shame, spiritual healing, trauma | 27 Comments

Someone always knows…

I wrote this a few months ago. I’ve been profoundly inspired by some very brave blogging friends who are standing up and telling the truth despite the steep consequences. May you continue to stand, my friends. We’re with you… A few months ago…(update at … Continue reading

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A proper thank you to my blogging friends…

I just started blogging in July and I’m shocked, literally and truly shocked, at how many wonderful people I’ve met in such a short time. It’s like God is raining down a deluge of blessings upon my computer with people … Continue reading

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